Rest in peace.

Hello to all that loved and lost,
It is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all. It was better, for those who knew her, to have know, loved, and lost her than to have not known her at all. All the stuff that happened this week, all the tears shed, all the things said, all of it was just.......undescribable. The feeling of morn around everyone and knowing you can't fell their pain. I felt like maybe a tenth of what they are feeling. I never had a chance to know her so I couldn't really feel their pain. I could only watch another person cry, another person fall, another person feel pain in their heart. And do nothing. Why did it have to happen. I don't know. Why is one question everyone has, and will have untill we join Shcrissony up with God and all his angels cause hearing what everyone said I know thats where she went. The balloon ceremony was bueatiful and I'm glad I got to be part of that but hopes nobody has to go through that anytime soon. Ps....if you find or see a balloon floating around remember her and don't forget to pray.

Rest in peace,
Angel

Ps......Arm qoute one, If I died today, you better miss me, covered up by Rest in Peace Schrissony.

~~~~~~~~~~ This is the day ~~~~~~~~~~~
If there was ever a time to hurt
if there was ever a time to cry
this would be the day

if there was ever a time to pray
ever a time to thank god for what you had or have
this would be the day

if there was ever a time to sing
ever a time to think
this would be the day

and everyday and anyday
this could happen
so live longer, laugh louder, love everyone
cause one day
ir may be the day

This blog may be reaaaalllly long. (Zoo trip part two.)

Hello Furballs,
Brandi says you should tell someone if you want something to stop but there are too many things I want to stop, like for instance, the world. From spinning and making me face another day over and over and over again. I can't like stop for a second and let me think. Their are to many feelings, deep in the pit of my sole for me to ever be able to fit in one blog. So I choose to keep it to myself and let the world spin. I'll get hurt, soo what, I'll be sad, but everyone else will be happy. It's how things work, at least in my life. I hate feeling, emotions, anything that confuses me and makes me act stupid. Gawd I wish they would go away or stop so I could get on with my life. I get soo mad sometimes I want to strangle things or burst. I get so sad I just want to crawl into a corner and hide, like in my closet, I love my closet. I can't stop it. I never will be able to. I don't want to get hurt, I don't want to hurt others. I don't want to cry, I don't want to be confused, I don't want to feel stupid. I guess sometimes I want to just let it all out. Talk on and on about everything rambling around in my head. I could probably go on for hours and hours. And at the end I guess I'd feel better. Maybe that stupid boulder holding everything would just fall. And maybe I wouldn't be held back.......Gawd this all sounds sooo stupid and....ugh. This is why I hide things.

Why did I have to pay like 15 dollars just to go to the zoo, eat, and get lost. Yes I said get lost. Obviously are teachers suck at directions because we spent half an hour walking around, IN THE RAIN, paranoid. I mean sereously lost in the zoo, in the cold damp wetness it is. It was freakin pouring. And if you think that sounds bad go to the rainforest in North America, we might as well been swimming. I was soaked. Though it was still kinda fun. O.K. you got me. It was insanely fun. I mean I probably wouldn't won't to go back there but still really fun. It took 2 freakin' hours to get there, which were boring as they could be and very uncomfortable. And that was bad but whats worse is the ride back. Sitting in your soaked clothes for 2 hours in a very uncomfortable position in the cold. THE COLD. I'm a really weird person and I would so love to be hurled up in a blanket in a small corner closed. I really don't like big open areas. Ooooh and if it was raining.....ok that sounds really weird.

Peace out xoxoxoxo,
Angel
Ps.......Random qoute on my arm today was "Never forget to say 'I love you!'

Zoo Trip.

Hello Ferocious Felines,

As you may, or may not know tomorrow is the zoo trip. For all those that do know, our group should consist of Christian, Brandi, Me, Adriana, Catarina, and Alex in that order. Hopefully They can have atleast groups of 6 ^_^. Like anyway, I know Christian has no listening capability so to repeat myself, IGNORE the next 3 or 4 blogs. And since I know he's going to ignore that don't get mad. I was trying to protect you from the shame that is my inner feelings. Gawd Christian you suck.....reading the blogs before I could edit them. UGH. Not like I care. Ladidadidaaaa!!!!!! i will so finish this wiin i remember what to wriite

L-O-V-E

Love means never having to say your sorry. It means no matter what you still care for that person past their flaws, and anything. I love a lot of people, or a little, however you want to look at it, and they couldn't do anything that would make me love them any less. Though I have to say love makes people do some really stupid things, act like tards and blinds those who see with their heart. Anyway when you say "I love you" it's like a contract signed stating you'll care for that person till the world allows you not to. Long ago the word love was one of those things that you don't say till your sure. I guess a sacride word that was not just handed out like cupons like how we use them today. More like freak-o halmark cards. Love makes people do things, bad things, things they wouldn't usually do and some things that hurt the ones they love. Hate it or love it love is just one of those things you have to deal with.

Peace out XOXO's,
Angel

ps.......Thank you Cat I guess you're right.
pss......2 new additions to the daily blog. One "What I wrote." a section wear i tell you all the amazing things i write on my arm. Pretty random. And 2 poetry, songs, or random qoute's. Either regular or simiregular.
psss........The commenting problem has been fixed. Soooo sorry about that. Please recomment or comment.

Junior Honors Sociaty Induction Ceremony

Hello Party Pups,
I get soooo pist hearing about that. One example of hate. Like 5 teachers at my school hate me to death. And that is why I was not exepted into the gay a** Junior Honors Sociaty and Golden Child Brandi, and Always Perfect Christian were. I soooo don't want to sound like a stuck up "I'm better than them" type because I sure as heck aren't. If the stupid judges didn't know me (or know what they thought was me) I would have gotten in, though I don't care that much........O.K. I care, ALOT!!! I'm just soo......UGH. I just get so annoyed. Brandi and Christian are better than me at everything. EVERYTHING!!!! I mean everything I do it seems they come along and do ten times better than me. I use to write poems, Brandi came along and wrote poems that were deep and really good. I use to be on SNN, Christian got in, I didn't, though thats kinda because I hate Blake. I have written stories since I was 9, Brandi wrote a fantasy story that even I know was amazing. The Student Ambasitor (correct spelling if wrong), Battle of the Books, drawing, anything really. O.K. now I sound jeolous when I'm not, really. I'm happy for how well they do in everything. Im just sad that I can't do half those things.
Peace out,
Angel

Max (not finished)

Hold me close

I've been working on my drawings.

You love me this much!!!!!

I HATE IT!!!!

I HATE IT, I HATE IT, I HATE IT. I hate to cry, I hate to feel pain, and I hate her. I hate her soo much right now. I just won't to crawl into a ball and hide in a dark corner and never come out. I want to cry until I have no more tears left. I want to throw everything I ccan out the window. I want to hit something, anything. I wanna run and run and run until there's no where else to go. I wanna die and never come back. I want the throbbing pain to stop. I want the tears to stop. I want to just shut down. I want it all to stop. Wish the world whould just stop spinning for a mnute. I wanna fall down and down and down, and necer stop falling into the darkness. It seems everyone hates me. When i try sooo hare to make them not. Why? Why am I always the one? The one to cry. The one to fall. The one to run. The one always getting hurt. Maybe I was made to be hated. Or maybe I was not made for anythin at all. I don't deserve this. Even when I do nothing it seems I still get hatred and tears fall. no matter what I do. no matter how much I cry, and hide. WHERE'S THE OFF BUTTON? Lifes getting to hard to handle and I want it to end......NOW. End it now. Right now!!!! Stop hurting me! Leave me alone! I did nothing to you so go away. Please.
-Angel

Why do the good die young?

Good Afternoon Little ones,
First off, I want to give a moment of silence to the girl from my school and my grade who died after getting hit by a bus. I wasn't sure of the name because my mom told me about it, but the facr that her life was taken away still matters. I know if one of my friends died (God forbid) I'd be sad. And I'm not saying that it'll be alright cause I'd be extremely pissed if someone said that to me. So I am soo sorry to her friends and family.
On a lighter note today was pretty fun. Electricity was back on but the bus came like half an hour late. That pisses me off. Ha 9th block was gym that was soooo much.....sleep. It was like class fun day. Adri (nick name for now) and I half slept through the class while she was talking about me being dead. I forgot what happened in Sutton.......oh yeah! We had to do weird pretty easy atlus book work. Blowupsuation dream! Ha thats sooo funny! (television show) Finishe Scooby Doo in 2nd block and back to dance which we did like nothing again. Except the fact that (the teacher who shall be unamed) started trying to pair Ana (temporary nickname) and me up with random people.......not pretty, trust me. Then we started watching a movie. Then there was the, bum bum bum HALL JAM!!! Which brings me back to Christian's horrible listening skills. Christian I want you to understand, Caps are important. THEY APPLY TO YOU!!!! Hall Jam was fun but they owe us pizza. Which we were suppose to get. We just got chips and soda.......very good by the way. And after talking my mom into letting me stay till the end of school (thank you mom!) You are reading the blog of the Girls Arm Wrestling Champion!!!!! Yeah meeeee! I'm soooo strong. Oh by the way, screw you Christian for the receipt! (stop thinking) Christian's fun to hug. He's like a giant plushie. With a gay purse which I hope he got rid of.
And here's the point of the day that I hate completly. Shots. I hate shots. Well first was the physical, hate that tooo, and the hearing check, yeah I'm death. But after all that stalling was the shot. So the first one didn't hurt that much but the second one, Gardisel, hurt like hell. It made my arm num. NO SHOTS FOR 5 YEARSSSSS!!!!!! Yeahhhh! And I got a Lollipop.
Don't forget to comment!!!!!!
Peace out xoxoxoxox,
Angel

Mexican crack.

Hello party peeoooople,
One, random people I so loooove Maximum Ride so if thats how you found this yeah you!!! Two, if you didn't read the first blog you need to to get things straight. So yeah, yesterday I walked in on my parents, ewwww. The electricity was out soo I couldn't post yesterday......ugh. Mexican crack? You should know what it is. Sonia gave me some.....NEVER LET ME EAT THAT. Gawd it like killed me. It was soooo.....yeah noooo! So we ate on the grill and played war in the dark. Stupid sister....always beating people. But yeah, the electricity didn't come on till like this afternoon so I had to do everything in the stupid dark. THE D....A...R....K! I mean sereously darkness is bad. And I was all paronoid over Bloody Mary in the mirror. I had to eat a bolognay and shreeded cheese sandwich, ewww. I'd so rather starve. oooo right when we got there it was like go to the gym then there was 1st block but me and adriana went with miss poke for the whole day. It wass tooootally awesome. Though we popped in on, what everyone calls, the gang all day and went back at 4th block. HALL JAM TOMMOROW WOOO HOOOO!!!!! Gave in my homework at P.A. (Christian and Brandi calling me annoying.) :( that does make me sad somewhat......even though I know they were joking it still hurts sorta. But of course change any feelings I have into a joke is the easiest way out of things. Think about it. I am sooo sure nobody made it this far down. Its fun when Christian and Brandi are in the gym. O well. I'm kinda sad that they're not coming tomorrow. And then kinda worried for my own sake that I didn't say goodbye. Not like a litteral goodbye, not leaving or anything, but I've been being a (CHRISTIAN STOP READING) b-i-t-c-h lately and I don't want to do anything to hurt them but the longer I stay the longer I think and the longer it stings. Like I said before I needed a break.....but that really didn't work out because of the whole missing them thing. It seems I can never be happy at the same time as them. I've given up my happieness 3 times for them and I think thats enough! I don't want to get hurt. (Christian you can start reading now.) I want the last boook sooooo badly, of Maximum Ride.
Ps.......If yoou read this please comment. Please and thank you!
-Angel

So heres the start

Hi!!!!!
Well to start off I'm Taylor but on the internet I use the name Angel.
#1 I'm probably going to start my blogs of with something completly stupid like....."Hi Kittens" or"Hola People."
#2 If your reading this I shouldn't have to tell you that much about me......Unless your just random then hi and welcome. Well if you are just random, no offense. Out of all the many amazing blogs to choose from I'm glad you choose mine.
#3 Only like 2 to 4 people I know are going to be able to read this. 4 if I decide to let Christian and Brandi read this. It's not that I don't trust them, it's that just some of this may be about them and yeah i don't exactly wont them reading it.
#4 If you were selected to read this blog, then it's because 1 I probably won't say anything personal about you that will make you hate or think im freaking out.
#5 If you are reading this blog you are not allowed to tell anyone or repeat anything on this blog!!!! If you can't handle that you might as well forget this adress and never return to this site.
Ps.....If you read my blog please comment so I know. Please and thank you.
-Angel