This blog may be reaaaalllly long. (Zoo trip part two.)

Hello Furballs,
Brandi says you should tell someone if you want something to stop but there are too many things I want to stop, like for instance, the world. From spinning and making me face another day over and over and over again. I can't like stop for a second and let me think. Their are to many feelings, deep in the pit of my sole for me to ever be able to fit in one blog. So I choose to keep it to myself and let the world spin. I'll get hurt, soo what, I'll be sad, but everyone else will be happy. It's how things work, at least in my life. I hate feeling, emotions, anything that confuses me and makes me act stupid. Gawd I wish they would go away or stop so I could get on with my life. I get soo mad sometimes I want to strangle things or burst. I get so sad I just want to crawl into a corner and hide, like in my closet, I love my closet. I can't stop it. I never will be able to. I don't want to get hurt, I don't want to hurt others. I don't want to cry, I don't want to be confused, I don't want to feel stupid. I guess sometimes I want to just let it all out. Talk on and on about everything rambling around in my head. I could probably go on for hours and hours. And at the end I guess I'd feel better. Maybe that stupid boulder holding everything would just fall. And maybe I wouldn't be held back.......Gawd this all sounds sooo stupid and....ugh. This is why I hide things.

Why did I have to pay like 15 dollars just to go to the zoo, eat, and get lost. Yes I said get lost. Obviously are teachers suck at directions because we spent half an hour walking around, IN THE RAIN, paranoid. I mean sereously lost in the zoo, in the cold damp wetness it is. It was freakin pouring. And if you think that sounds bad go to the rainforest in North America, we might as well been swimming. I was soaked. Though it was still kinda fun. O.K. you got me. It was insanely fun. I mean I probably wouldn't won't to go back there but still really fun. It took 2 freakin' hours to get there, which were boring as they could be and very uncomfortable. And that was bad but whats worse is the ride back. Sitting in your soaked clothes for 2 hours in a very uncomfortable position in the cold. THE COLD. I'm a really weird person and I would so love to be hurled up in a blanket in a small corner closed. I really don't like big open areas. Ooooh and if it was raining.....ok that sounds really weird.

Peace out xoxoxoxo,
Angel
Ps.......Random qoute on my arm today was "Never forget to say 'I love you!'